FORGIVE ME
Forgive me for thinking about myself this once
And trying to do what is best for me
Forgive me for not giving myself a chance to feel again
Forgive me not choosing to believe that
You will all stay because you love me…
Because you want what’s best for me
Forgive me for shielding myself just this once
From eternal heartbreak and a lifetime of scars.
Forgive me for needing closure…
For needing to understand this once,
Why it had to be me bleeding… again
Forgive me for not being strong enough
To let anyone place FOREVER
Where it clearly doesn’t belong.
Forgive me for hating all strangers
Who will become family because?
It will be hurting me silently when you leave.
Forgive me for cutting off all of you
In order to regain some kind of balance
In my messed up life.
Forgive me for not believing in people
Who have souls like hometowns and
Hearts like fire places… warm and welcoming.
Forgive me for taking a different path
Just this once…
For protecting my already dead heart.
Forgive me for severing my ties with you,
Who have hosted my lost heart and
Given me a home.
Forgive me, but somethings have to be done.
